Losing Heart

I found this title today while reading another blog.  It describes my day well.  It was not a good day for me, but I am happy to say I had friends praying for me, a husband to support me and God speaking to me through a blog from Proverbs 31 ministries.  I will include the link at the end.

First to catch everyone up:

Logan has a sinus infection with chest involvement.  Antibiotics, Allegra and Albuterol (nebulizer) were prescribed
Caden had a rough day at school.  He designated one of his friends as the "bad guy" and proceeded to punch him (like Batman) and split his lip.
Mason had therapy today.  Though he is making progress, it is excruciatingly slow and could take several YEARS!!!


(Setup for Friday)

I do this to myself.  Yesterday I took a nap (which I needed) then drank a Cherry Coke Zero (which I didn't) this resulted in a terrible nights sleep.  In addition, Logan has had a very difficult time going to bed since the time change.  He is a night owl like his daddy and can't fall asleep.  Every night this week he has been getting up with some complaint (I am hungry, I can't sleep, I miss you guys).  We let it slide the first couple of times (our mistake) but we dropped the hammer last night.  We told him, before he went to bed, if he got up he would not be able to watch a movie with the family on movie night.  This is a favorite thing to do for us.  At 8:30, he stumbles in and we immediately issue the punishment and he goes back to bed...screaming.

Friday from heck...

I got up on time (hurray).  Logan woke up and the drama began.  Throwing himself on the floor, refusing to get dressed, coughing and sneezing..in other words a normal day.  Since he had been coughing for quite some time, I attributed it to his being sick, dressed him for school and vowed to make him a doctor appt ASAP.

Losing heart #1:  Drama with Logan AGAIN

Everyone is dressed and out the door on time.  Stopped the car to say a prayer as everyone is in a MOOD!!!  Had to cancel carpool, so that I could take Logan to Dr.  Stopped by their office and they did not have any early appts.  Scheduled one for 11:45 and drove Logan to school, dragged all the kids inside to sign him in as we were late, and loaded everyone back in the car.

Losing heart #2:  Had to do this all over again at 11:45

Spoke to my mom on the phone.  She was having a bad day as well.  Car problems and attacks from Satan on several things.  She was in tears, which made me feel helpless.  (PRAISE...car was fixed with no cost to her)

Losing heart #3:  Feeling helpless from mom's struggles

Took Caden to school and then on to therapy with Mason.  I sat in on a session with his therapist.  He is progressing but we have so far to go.  She mentioned that it would take 3-4 years.  I believe this process would move faster if I could work with him more at home.  There are not enough hours in the day and I feel like I am failing him. WILL POST MORE ABOUT THIS IN ANOTHER BLOG

Losing heart #4:  3-4 YEARS

Drove like a madwoman back to school to pickup Logan for his doctors appt.  He is angry that he had to leave school early and scared of what is going to happen at the doctors office.  Explained the details and he is calmer.

Doctor confirms that Logan is sick (THANK THE LORD) and give us a RX (DOUBLE PRAISE) and we are out in time to pick up Caden from school.

Grab lunch in the car and then pickup Caden.  He has had a bad day.  This is becoming a common discussion between us and his teacher. 

Losing heart #5:  Am I raising a bully?  Is he the ring leader of the posse on the playground.  Why does he love the darker side of things.  Why are his lies so convincing?  Why does he relish saying bad words, calling names, fighting?  When will God grab his heart?

Lost my keys at Preschool School...found them
Take Logan for allergy shots...he screams again...even with the numbing cream

And then the tide slowly turns...

David's meetings are cancelled for the afternoon so he can come home and help (PTL)
Mom's car gets fixed at no cost
Took a nap
Made a meal and took it to a friend.
Held a 4 week old baby who was beautiful and smelled even better
Then sat for 45 minutes with a new mom and remembered the good ole days
Went to fill RX and grocery shop w/o kids
Had my RX filled at Target for $1.60 and received a $10 gift card (SCORE)
Watched my husband patiently calm Logan's fears about the nebulizer.  I love him.  He is amazing.
Discussed all the above with hubby, he helps me gain perspective.
Find the wonderful blog post and feel God speaking directly to me.  I love it when that happens
http://devotions.proverbs31.org/2011/03/losing-heart.html
So now, I am still beaten and weary, but feel God presence.  Tomorrow is another day.

Mary